La Bella Vita

"People are what people say they're not. Just like seeing color is the only color you forgot." -I AM BAND Is it better to have no expectations so you cannot be disappointed? Or is it better to have them so you never settle for less? Is it better to be optimistic and see the glass half full-- and often be disappointed? Or is it better to be a pessimist and see the glass half emthy-- and be surprised by the outcome? God is bigger. "Faith sat on the bench beside me. She had been close to me all my life, but that evening, for the first time, I heard her breathing," Samir Selmanovic.

I am an introvert. Actually, according to Myers-Briggs Personality Inventory I am an INFJ. I realized today you can discover a lot about yourself by taking this personality test. Not only can it benefit you in discovering yourself, but it can help you work out your social habits as well. Why am I the girl who would rather stay home and study on a Saturday night then go out to a movie with 10 of my friends? Why would I rather run 5 miles then have a 'girls night' with 5 girls I just met? I'm an introvert. I can't help it. I enjoy solitude. I enjoy peace. I enjoy thinking things through. I enjoy myself. I been finding recently that the trust I find in others grows slimmer everyday. I see the ulterior motives amongst people and it pulls me back even more. I see my friends do it to other people, I can feel it happening to me. Sometimes, on rare occasion, I invest myself deeply in someone just to find that shortly after which, I'm trying to piece myself back together...

Most people don't eat the core of the apple. They get to the seeds and decide that a deer or some wild animal would better enjoy this portion of the fruit. It's one of those things you throw out the window of your car as drive on your way to class in the morning. But have you ever tried to eat the whole thing? It really doesn't taste much different. In fact, it's crunchier, sudden change in texture provides a surprise for the hungry eater. Eat the core next time. I don't think I can remember when I last opened my Bible. I know it had to have been sometime when I was living in California, or shortly upon my return from that place, but I can't put my finger on when it was. When did that happen? When did I let go? When did I step back and decide that this part of my life wasn't a priority anymore? Amongst the excitement of being home, enjoying my major, and paving my future in a direction that I've always dreamed, I've lost sight of the person who g...